Sunday, January 26, 2014

16 weeks (or 17?)

this week, the cold really kicked my ass. i posted this on fb before but i really don't think i've ever felt this cold in my entire life. as my friends commented, it's probably a combination of 1) an unseasonably cold winter, 2) age and 3) pregnancy. it took me 2 hours to thaw after work on friday. i came home, ate dinner, and then ran upstairs and changed into sweats and sat in bed under 3 blankets. hawaii cannot come fast enough. it's sad because i used to be very good with the cold - maybe from years of playing hockey in cold ice rinks. but alas, my age is catching up with me.

i went to my OB for a checkup on friday and she said the results of my NT ultrasound came back. she said all the test results look great. she also mentioned that the OB at the hospital thinks my due date is actually 7/6, not 7/13 because the baby is "huge." -_- the next ultrasound at 20 weeks will confirm the exact due date. so i might actually be 17 weeks today, not 16. we'll found out in 4 weeks. the other thing that happened at the OB checkup is i got yelled at because i lost 3 pounds from my last appointment 4 weeks ago (although, it was up 2 pounds from my appointment with the pulmonary doctor 2 weeks ago). it's so hard to eat regular meals still, but i'm just trying to find things that i can stomach that have some nutrition. tonight's dinner was plain greek yogurt with granola and 고구마 (korean yams). but the big development this past week was i ate meat. i actually ate beef for dinner yesterday, and i didn't love it, but i also didn't spit it out. so that's progress. i ate thinly sliced beef with lettuce wraps and masked the flavor of the beef with gallons of sesame oil. works for lana, worked for me. :) hopefully i can start eating regularly soon. pork and chicken are still completely out of the question though. the thought of them still makes me want to gag.

my mom is coming on 2/16. i am so so so excited, and while i of course want her here so i can hang out with her, i must admit that i am also really excited that she can cook for us. having to cook on a daily basis for your family really takes the fun out of cooking, esp. when you are cooking food you can't even eat! sundays are my cooking days (and it feels like i'm cooking for hours and hours). i do my grocery shopping, cook a couple meals and also prep another meal so the cooking time is quick on the weekday i actually make the food.

today i cooked:
1. beef stir fry with cabbage and onions, and roasted cauliflower (for dinner tonight). the rest of the beef went into the freezer.
2. sloppy joes (dinner the next 2 nights for daddy and andy). lana will eat leftover soup that's in the fridge - i don't think she'll like sloppy joes.
and i also prepped a third meal of korean pork meatballs by chopping up all the veggies, so that on the day it's dinner, all i have to do is mix with the ground pork, tofu, eggs and breadcrumbs and fry up.

i am seriously considering hiring a korean nanny when baby #2 gets here to help with the cooking. i don't know if i can do it with working + 2 kids. if you have any tips on cooking, cleaning, juggling, balancing, tightroping...or more generally, just "how to get it done with kids and a job and not go crazy," please let me know! it's a daily struggle - one i'm glad to do and thankful for but you know, sometimes you just want to not have to pee with an audience or step on the same toy 5 times in one day.

Tuesday, January 21, 2014

15 weeks (delayed...again)

sunday marked 15 weeks of pregnancy. i guess it felt like i had just blogged and so i didn't really feel like writing again on sunday. i probably shouldn't be writing this right now but mentally, i am taking a snow day (even though i am still in the office). speaking of weather, i am so confused by the news. for that last storm on jan 3, there was so much media coverage i was bracing myself for a foot. we barely got 5 inches. i didn't even KNOW there was going to be snow today until the hubs said so this morning. i felt like there was very little media coverage for this storm, and now they're saying it's going to be way worse than the last one. don't get it. is weather coverage more intense when there isn't much going on in the world? like they have nothing else to report on?

so i'm 15 weeks now. i'm feeling much better - thanks everyone for checking in with me. as much as i am having a hard time believing it, maybe i do have asthma because i've been breathing much better ever since i got the inhaler, damnit. notable things for this is moving a lot more, or at least i'm feeling it a lot more. with lana, i didn't feel her until 21 weeks. i started feeling this baby at 10 weeks! i guess it helps to know what it feels like. i'm still not eating that well - i went through a big box of apple jacks in 3 days by myself. cereal is still my #1 meal, and i'm still anti-meat. i can have beef here and there but chicken and pork are absolute no's. i also can't do most korean food, which is usually my favorite. i think i've lost about 7-8 pounds so far. the goal is to not lose anymore. the other new thing is i feel like my body is stretching out more, in preparation for the growing belly. i've been experiencing a lot of pain around my thighs and hips (where my legs meet my torso). it's not that bad, but i feel it a lot whenever i walk.

one thing we've noticed is lana has been very clingy lately. she used to run into daycare without even turning around, but now she cries every morning. is it because of baby? i've heard a few parents saying the same thing. it'd be interesting to hear more stories about whether this is true or not. i guess i was skeptical initially because i thought the baby was not really real to her, since she can't see it and it's just a bump on mommy's belly. but maybe they're smarter than we give them credit for.

in other news, my hair was driving me crazy and i chopped it off. it felt like i was carrying a dead animal around on my head.

i will get around to posting bump pictures...someday. everyone be super safe in this storm please!

Thursday, January 9, 2014

13 weeks, delayed

i want to try to post every week of my pregnancy, but this week i'm a bit late. i turned 13 weeks last sunday, but couldn't post then because i've been going through some medical issues that have been really frustrating and bewildering, and that have overshadowed the fact that i entered my second trimester.

since last thursday, i've been having trouble breathing. at first, it was more of an annoyance than a real issue, so i didn't think much of it. pregnancy makes you feel out of breath sometimes, so i thought it was normal. but friday i woke up and it was the same thing, so i went to my doctor. all the tests came back fine (EKG and bloodwork), so he wasn't sure what the issue was. he gave me a couple reasons that could be the cause (such as reflux and anemia) but he suggested i see a pulmonary specialist just in case. but then saturday i woke up and felt pretty good. i said to sh, "i feel better!" then ate a piece of toast. within 10 minutes, i felt a major blockage in my sternum/chest area and the breathing problems started up again. i self-diagnosed at that point and decided the breathing issue must be related to reflux, since it got worse right after i ate. the breathing and the chest pain/reflux got worse so i barely ate all weekend. sunday night it got so bad that we decided to go to the ER, but it was much of the same thing. all the tests came back fine, and the ER doc said based on what i said, it seems like it might be caused by reflux. he told me to keep taking zantac and to follow up with my doctor if i don't feel better in a week or so. i was so frustrated because as much as i kind of knew it probably wouldn't happen, i wanted some immediate relief. it is really exhausting to have to consciously suck in air every minute or so, only to still feel unsatisfied and like you didn't take a deep breath. side note, i am really scared of my ER bill, even with insurance. -_-

i emailed work on monday morning to tell them what happened, and stayed home to rest. i also made an appointment with a GI doctor and luckily they had a spot open the same day. (by this point, i had seen 3 doctors in 4 days, and i got weighed each time. my weight went 111, 110, 109.) the GI doctor said reflux can cause breathing problems, and that pregnancy definitely exacerbates reflux, but she didn't seem convinced that reflux would cause breathing problems consistently for 5 days. she said if the breathing isn't better in 2 days, go see a pulmonary specialist. my stomach/reflux issues were a bit better by monday so i was finally able to eat a little more.

the breathing was pretty much the same the rest of monday and tuesday so i scheduled an appointment with a pulmonary specialist on thursday. wednesday i felt a little better, and this morning, i felt a lot better, but i still went to the pulmonary specialist. i gave him the same summary that i gave the other doctors. he asked a lot of questions, then asked me to take a breath test. that was exhausting. it's just breathing into a tube over and over really hard. i was so light-headed by the end of it. the tech sent the report over to the doctor, and i went to his office and sat down. he said, "so. you have...asthma." !!! what!? i said "what??" he told me it appears that i've had it for some time, and it's very mild, but that it must have been dormant for my entire life since i've never experienced breathing problems before. he asked me if i'm active. i told him i was going once a week to the gym until i got pregnant because any strenuous activity made me nauseous. he asked me whether i was active as a kid, and i said i played a lot of ice hockey. he said ice hockey players have the best lungs and that it must've temporarily "cured" my asthma - in that my lungs were in such good shape as a kid that the asthma never had a chance to surface. however, he said it seems that there was basically a perfect storm of events in the recent weeks that led to the asthma showing itself for the first time - working a lot, stress, pregnancy, the cold weather, not exercising, etc. etc. i used to feel bad for those kids in elementary school who walked around with inhalers and were wheezing by the end of gym class. now that's me! :( he gave me an inhaler to use and told me to check in with him in two weeks. he said he's pretty confident this is the reason for my breathing troubles, but that there's always a chance it's not. i guess i'm glad to know the likely reason for my past week of breathing woes, but i was definitely blindsided by this find. i told my mom and after lamenting it for a while, she said, "so glad you guys played hockey. lana must play hockey!" i mean, duh.

in other news, we went to our first ultrasound yesterday. the doctor said everything looks good. we're so thankful for our healthy growing baby. i also will give said baby much hell in his/her teenage years about the pregnancy i went through for him/her. this pregnancy has been so much harder than the first. now that i'm in my second trimester, i hope to eat more normally soon. the nausea has definitely gotten better. maybe i'll start posting bump pictures next week...